what i’m learning in this living situation where i’m not on my own and not comfortable is that there’s a lot for me to accomplish and get done when i’m away form “home” or the room. i think previously i was using the fact that i lived alone as a way to strengthen my apathy. now that i live with another person i’m forced to leave the room and get out and do something, i’d rather( and still pray for my living situations to change) but i guess i can see the lesson. i just want it to end soon…
the feeling i get when creativity is bottled up in me…when i need to express an emotion or reflect on an experience. its creative indigestion cluing me in.
merry christmas to whomever felt so desperate to go into my wallet and steal all my money. i hope your christmas is better than mine. i hope your family enjoys the presents you buy them with my money. actually i hope you really needed the money. i hope that the money i worked so hard for actually goes to something good and not just the latest greatest gadget. ugh i hate the way the holiday season makes 90% of the population act.
someday i’ll be the baddest boy in the yard. i’ll stop caring about my reputation and the world’s expectations and be as bad as i wanna be… some day
selfishness. how do we overcome this particular habit? when does putting yourself first cross the line into something that can be harmful to someone else’s emotions, physical well-being or their mental endurance? how do we know if we’ve crossed that line. this life doesn’t come with answers. at least not the easy ones. observing selfishness in another shines the light on the selfishness in your life.
love. the one thing we all strive to have in our lives. whether it be romantic love, familial love, or platonic love, we just can’t seem to get enough of it. there are even times when we feel unloved, unwanted and alone. when those times come upon us, i think its important to ask ourselves ” who do you love?” i truly believe that life, the universe, karma all were fashioned and work in a cyclical way. the love we receive is equal to the love we give out. when you find yourself in that dark lonely place give love to others and you’ll be shocked how fast love comes back to you!
ugh. when i first started this project i was extremely excited about posting new blogs, updating my twitter account and also making new youtbe videos. Somehow i’ve lost the drive for it for a couple days, but victory will be mine. I’m back and i’m ready to go i’ve uploaded two videos to youtube last night, update my twitter, followed about 20 more people, and am now updatding this blog. i think this whole thing is a test of drive and will. if you really want something and are willing to put the work in, i believe there’s no way you could fail at it. so i’ma gonna keep posting and keep making my web presence known look out world here comes Nicky!
